Today is 24/9/2011. Time pass by really fast! ONLY HALF MORE MONTH LEFT TILL SCHOOL REOPENS. I'm really sure that I'll miss the holidays so much when school reopens! But of course. It'll be nice to study after such a long holiday! Time to fill my brains with some info!

"Life is really unpredictable."

I truly agree with it! You'll never know what will happen next, because life is unpredictable like that. May it be good or bad, happy or sad. :)

I love this picture!! So christmas. <3

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiii.

I stayed over at pris' house since tuesday and I'm finally back home! I had a super experience and I'm sure I'll miss it. Her family was really friendly and warm. We had lots of heart-to-heart talks (unknowingly). We did masks together. We had a movie. We went shopping together. We camwhored. And so many more....

I absolutely love stayovers. Especially with people I love.

OH ANYWAY. I went for the sogurt interview just nowwwwwwwww. And I got to know Chloe. SHE SAID THAT I LOOK KOREAN. WEEEEEEE~

OK. Hopefully I get the job. I'm fine if I don't get it too. BUT I HOPE I GET IT. Heheheee.

I just came back from jogging!! Hehehe. It has been such a long time since I jogged! My mom have been nagging at how unhealthy I am (Eating so much and not exercising). SO, YES. I EXERCISEDDDDDDDD. I feel so proud of myself, cause I managed to pull myself out of bed and get on the track!

I wouldn't say that I ran for a long distance. BUT. IT'S BETTER THAN NOTHING.

Anyway. IT'S THE HOLIDAYS NOW. Just can't wait to get my pay. I wanna go shopping! And, it has been a long time since I met up with my secondary school friends. I really miss them. IF ONLY I DON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT MONEY. I'll go out with my friends everyday. Sigh.

But of course. I enjoyed my holidays. Even though I didn't do much. At least I felt stress-free! That's the most important thing anyway!

I received a message by my sister this morning. It's a reminder from my mom to visit the doctor. In the message, my sister asked me not to worry and that it would be alright. This message made me tear up. This may be considered nothing to the rest of you. But, to me, it's a really touching message.

My family isn't like many of the other families out there. We don't show much concern for each other. We don't tell each other we love them. So, when I get such concern today, I teared up. I guess my sister understands that I'm scared, cause she saw me staring at the bone jutting out on my right wrist. It isn't obvious in the picture, I know.

I've been having this condition for quite a long time already. I think.. maybe more than a month? I've never dared to tell my mom about it because whenever I told her that I'm not feeling well, she would say that it's because I don't eat enough vegetables and fruits and that I don't drink enough water. I didn't want to hear her give me a speech again. I didn't want to think so much about it because I'm afraid that it's something serious.

Then one day, I plucked up my courage to ask my mom about my wrist, cause it hurts whenever I press my right wrist down. She got a shock and asked me to visit the doctor.

So, yup. I finally visited the doctor today. I was so scared. So scared that something serious might happen to me. So scared that I've to do x ray. So scared that they might have to operate on me. So scared about everything.

The doctor told me

"Medicine won't work. You've to do an x ray to find out the problem"

I asked him whether it's serious, whether it'll affect me and he said that he don't know and I've to do an x ray.

I called my mom straightaway after the consultation and told her about it. She feels that it's because of the long usage of my laptop and that I need to use a wrist-rest. But I really don't feel that this is the case...  I don't know whether she plans to let me do an x-ray or not, cause it's so expensive and plus this might not be so serious anyway.

Anyway, she asked me to visit a Chinese sinseh. I don't mind going if it'll cure my wrist. But.. what if it makes things worse? Sigh..

I feel my frown lines deepening, slowly engraved onto my skin. Life is never ever fair.

Some people are born with that silver spoon in their mouth, whereas some are born as a beggar. The difference of being a rich and a poor kid is so humongous. A rich kid troubles on how to impress people. A poor kid troubles on whether he can survive the next day. Tell me why such things happen, why isn't life fair.

I have quite a number of friends. In fact, much more than some of my friends have. But tell me, who will be there for me when I need them? Do I even have true friends to start off with? Sometimes I really doubt that. I need some faith, some hope. Not just having people there to tell me that they'll be there for me, they love me, I'm the best.

You do so many things for the sake of everyone when the others don't seem to care at all. Sometimes I pause to ponder. Is it worth it? Why are you doing so many things when you're not gaining the credit? I don't know the answer to this question. I felt so unjustified. Yet I don't want to do anything about it because I don't want to make things ugly. I don't want to do it because I feel damn guilty and bad about myself. It makes me feel like a sinner. The worse of the worst. A backstabber.

Give me a break.

My alarm rang. I stopped it and proceed to reply a message that was sent to me 2 hours ago. Then, I got out of bed to brush my teeth. THE VERY NEXT MOMENT, my grandma was shouting at me. I don't know what the hell has happened. I GOT SCOLDED AFTER BRUSHING MY TEETH. This is nothing new. But the feeling just sucks when you get scolded for not doing anything.

Up till now, she's still mad at I don't know what. She has been shouting and moaning for about 30 minutes. I won't stop her, because I know if I stop her, it'll be even worse.

Tell me how I feel.

It has been 12 days since I blogged. It's not considered long, but also not exactly short. Life has been really busy these days. Projects and tests and projects. It's just  about a month to the exams week. Life in poly isn't a breeze at all. But right till now, I don't regret my decision.

Cause even though life in poly is really hectic, I guess I enjoy it. The people I work with, the things I learn,... just everything.

Next year would be a tougher year. I'll do better and I'll be stronger.

Cambodia- A man unzipped his pants and relieved himself on the streets. I took a picture. He turned and saw my camera. I expected him to be in fury. But to my surprise, he smiled and waved.

On the streets of Cambodia, IBZ 2011 overseas trip Day 2

Hi people! Sorry, but I find posting pictures and describing the things we did was damn tiring. So I decided to post pictures, bit by bit. Hopefully y'all will like it. (: